gahhhhhh. all i did today was go to big splash, watch men smooch around as though they were dying (which actually might be true if you did a bloody half ironman), smell alot of sweat and dirt, eat carls junior then walk home and i'm bloody dead tired -.- sheesh. my unfitness is hitting a record level high. this is sad. hahaha, but yeh i have great admiration for yipeng (y)
i'm extremely lazy to upload pictures when i'm in spore. i think its cos i have too many things i can do to occupy my time, like TV, CABLE, DVDS, SHOPPING, FRIENDS that i can't be bothered. haha. so yeh, wait till i get back to london. which will still be quite awhile. grins.
chinese wedding dinners are omg longggg -.- its like everytime i go to one, i start adding to my list of 'things i should never put my wedding guests too', that is if i actually end up getting married one day. smirks. the whole fairytale aspect of a wedding is entirely lost in sporean weddings really. it becomes a ritual of obligations that need to be fulfilled. fuck la, a wedding should be for the bride and groom. that's it. not the parents, grandparents whoever to show off or whatever. it should be done with sincerity and not have red roses cos red roses = love, or like a archway of flowers cos that's e way its supposed to be. haha. and what happened to the first dance (: the dance floor. the fun? sheesh. its supposed to be the happiest day, not a bloody funeral procession. sighs
i'm off to watch my ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni. tata. e fictional world is always so much better than reality -.-
despite everything, weddings still put forbidden, troubling, disturbing ideas and images into my head. that does nothing NOTHING good for me.